Healing all that is
in within.
A simple page about my rollercoaster journey through healing. Discover my history with cancer, my diagnosis, treatment plans, and the lessons I’ve learned. Defying the odds and flourishing through it all.
Learning as we go….
Life is filled with gentle and quiet lessons that can often go unnoticed amidst the noise of our human existence. It is only when we consciously silence the clamor around us that we become attuned to these subtle yet profound teachings. I will be expressing gratitude for each passing moment and embracing the commitment to find joy in laughter every day.
Great Rabbit Hole Resources
2024 side quests goals
- Reach 120 lbs. weight goal
- Becoming an Stomach Cancer Advocate
- Travel, Camping
“This message is so simple, yet it gets forgotten. The people living with the condition are the experts.”
– Micheal J. Fox, Parkinson/Actor –
Updates and musings
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Chasing the white rabbit..
Yes down the hole, into an unpredictable world, one that still feels very dreamlike… one that feels still too surreal. Even at 15 months of treatment. It’s been a minute so lets back track a bit. Jan/Feb right dab in the middle of my 2nd line of treatment (Paclitaxel and Ramucirumab) Mayo offered me the…
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Humbling River
1 year cancerversary from the start of my treatment has arrived, with humbleness and appreciation that I have for my body being able to be as strong as it has been this past year. With that being said though, I have now gotten progression on my cancer, my last scans have shown that I have…
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Hold on, hold strong
“Hold on, hold strong” words that are said to me now after my visits with oncologists. I tend to dissociate to those well meaning words, which are to meant comfort me, because well it is obvious, I am holding on so hard. More than ever now. We’ve had another change of course; the Mayo clinical…
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Back to the drawing board
I know, its been a while since my last update. I have been trying to process everything emotionally for a bit and figuring out next steps before sharing. After another scan and bone biopsy, it has been confirmed that I have metastatic spread to the bones at the moment. Therefore, I am no longer a…
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Once again on the merry go round.
Not even sure where to begin this post. Surgery has been placed on pause. What I am about to say is incredibly disquieting and exemplifies how difficult it is to navigate thru the health system even with all the advancements made. Surgery was cancelled due to a suspicion of bone lesions which have shown up…
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It’s all energy, even radiation energy
Well I am back home from a 30-day stay in Jacksonville, after completing a total of 15 days (3wks) of chemo/radiation. It was a humbling experience from day one. I was so confident that nausea wouldn’t affect me, especially after 6 months of chemo, but I was sorely mistaken. I quickly learned the almighty power…
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Plan for all the pivots
Mayo Clinic HIPEC procedure was a success! I am still recovery mode, but all good news! PET Scan = no new activity in my body, and lymph nodes are even smaller. Upper Endoscope = reduced size of tumor from 5cm to 3cmDiagnostic laparoscopy = my original PCI score of 7 is now down to 0…
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Breathe in for 4, pause for 4, exhale out for 4
Here is the overdue update for those that are curious. My team has decided to take break/pause for my liver enzymes to settle down before my laparoscopic HIPEC procedure coming up so April 23rd was my 10th and final chemo as of now and so far so good, my blood lab liver numbers are slowly…
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This trip could have been an email
So as the joke goes, this meeting could have been an email. That was my experience going to Houston last week. After figuring out the logistics of our flight, hotel, car rental, work schedule, we arrived to Houston with high expectations and were sorely disappointed. At first I tried to ignore the worn out aesthetics…
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‘Unwashed’ turkey tail mushrooms
We got jokes… No but seriously, I am not against complementing my treatment good supplements and nutrition to balance all the crazy effects of chemotherapy. But I will loudly say to those that get uncomfortable and are weary with me doing chemo “both the lives of my brother, and father were saved due to systemic…
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Steady as she goes
Living with cancer often entails an unexpected and demanding commitment. No one tells you that it can transform into a full-time occupation that revolves around researching the condition, acquiring knowledge about available treatments, engaging with fellow patients, participating in webinars to stay informed about the latest advancements, and managing numerous appointments and calls with medical…
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Rhythm of my treatment
Wanted to share a brief summary of the appointments I have during my bi-weekly treatment of FOLFOX, a combination chemotherapy, along with immune therapy. It’s important for me to keep track of these appointments and treatments to monitor my progress and ensure everything is going smoothly. Hopefully this can also serve as a source of…
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Kismet and tribulations
As my previous post stated, I did a 180-degree turn in my life, along with that shift brought one of the sweetest blessings of my life. I met someone who has the most calm and unwavering energy that I’ve ever encountered. Granted my default cynical self struggled to believe at face value what I was…
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2012-2022 A decade of lessons
This humble WordPress was created originally to express my perspective in the world of art and graphic design, which was my chosen career. It was a successful one as I ended up reaching the goal of working with one of my favorite companies, Apple Inc. My role in their print and web transcreation department stands…
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Opps!
Last night as I was getting ready to sleep, as my per usual, I grab a book or magazine to help me lull into dreamland. This particular moment I grab my latest issue of Marie Claire, and as I flip the FIRST pages…. my heart stops. That moment when my jaw drops and I see…
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Click, click, switch, click
Today’s theme is point, shoot aaannnnd then retouch! Actually no. My experience behind the camera, as a photographer and a graphic designer has taught me a very valuable lesson. I remember a year ago I was very adamant at saying…”no worries! I can always retouch that later” but oh no, no, no. How I have to learn the…
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Support local movements
Excited to be getting involved more locally lately, from assisting in the creation of a local magazine, to building campaigns for latin america divisions, I really feel as Miami is truly becoming my permanent home. Despite all my desires to move out west, lately its just been a pleasure to work and play in sunny Miami. With…
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A fine line between art and the rest
Days like this, where everything seems so quiet, where I stare at the blank page and knowing fully well the potential that exists within this medium, yet I lag in my start. My Wacom tablet there on the right, mocking me with its unplugged usb cable. I so badly wish to illustrate, but what, and…
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REALM OF HEALING 